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the possibility of falling in love
Paring : Goren/Eames
rating :T for now
I hope all of you enjoy it and I want to say a BIG THAK YOU to my beta!!!!!
I'm not the kind of guy who gets distracted easily... well except when it is something work related. But this morning in the captain’s office, I don't know what came over me. I was awestruck by Alex... I mean Eames. I have to remind myself that she is Eames, my partner and not Alex, the woman I daydream about. Because yes I daydream about her. When I saw her enter the captain’s office I felt like all my oxygen left my body and my groin became tight. She is not only beautiful, she is hot.
I don't think I have the right word to describe her. What attracts me to her it isn't only her look, it her attitude. She looks very confident and sure of herself. Like the captain says she is not the kind of girl who lets anybody walk on her toes. She also looks feminine even is she is wearing more masculine clothes. She has a smile to die for. Really she is... beautiful.
But now she is my partner and I don't want to damage her career. I know what people say about partners having a relationship. That the fault always comes back on the women and I don't want that. So she has to be Eames for me and nothing else. Maybe if we met in a different way, but it’s not the case so we are going to stay partners. But all that doesn't stop me from daydreaming about her. Because after all I'm only a man and she is a fine woman. Maybe I should go on a date to change my mind. Nah...that’s probably not a good idea; I don't to use another woman only for satisfying my needs. But I do need a distraction. Maybe I should see what Lewis is doing tonight.
Lewis and I have been friends since we were kids. We’ve always been there for each other. He is my only real family. I tell him everything but now I hesitate to tell him about my new partner. I know that if I tell him he won't shut up about it. And I will hear about it for the rest of my life, if not more. I love him like a brother but damn he has a big mouth. In some ways we are complete opposites but I don't care about any of it. So here I am in my friend garages working on one of his cars.
“So, man you didn't tell me, how was your first day at MC? I hope your new partner is not an old dusty cop who prefers to eat donuts more than solve crime.” We both share a laugh. Still laughing I tell him,
“You know it not all cops who like to eat donuts more than work you know. Me for example, I hate donuts. So how was the day in the garage?
“Busy as always but you didn't answer my question about your new partner. What is it?”
Why does he have to ask the only question I don't want him to ask? I think to myself.
I look anywhere but I him. Damn it, I want a diversion not to talk about my new partner. Maybe I should just give in, knowing him he won't stop till he gets want he wants. I take a deep breath and start telling him about her. When I'm finished he looks at me with his eyes wide open and a big smile on his face.
“So you got a hot babe as partner, damn you’re a lucky bastard!”
“Hey, have a little bit of respect for her please. You know it’s hard to be a woman in the force so please be nice.”
Why do I feel this defensive of her that fast? I think to myself, I know he didn't really mean anything mean by it.
“Sorry man I didn't want to be disrespectful, it just the way you talk about her, its like you found the woman of your dreams man.” He was right when he says that. Because I feel like I found the woman of my dreams but I never will be able to have something with her.
“You know the rules, nothing can never happen between us. So we are better not talking about that, now or ever.”
“It’s your decision man, but I'm sure you will change your mind soon enough. Come on enough talk about women and more work on the car.” We both start to laugh and continue our work on the car in front of us.
After my night with Lewis I was feeling a little bit better. Lewis was always the best to make me feel better, but I am still thinking about Alex. I don't think anything will make me stop thinking about her. It’s hard not to think about her when I know I will be working with her everyday like I did today. She is in my head and I think that she is destined to be there for a long time. So I have to deal with it. It could be worse, she could hate me or think I'm nuts and be disgusted by me. By her reaction of today I think she likes me but not like I like her. She could never feel like I feel. She is so much better than me in more than one way.
So I go sleep to dream about her, because dreams are the only thing that I will ever have when it comes to her.
A:N: Ao let me know how you did find it !!! thank for reading it!!!